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Sunday, May 07, 2006 

NUMB

I dunno how to feel right now..Mix emotions aq..gusto qng maiyak pero wala nmn aqng maiyak, gusto kong mainis, yeah im feeling it right now, pro ayokong mainis s buong mundo.....Walang wala aqng pakiramdam...my Manuscript was rejected....ang saklap..But that's the truth and it really hurts...But I can't feel the pain so far..Not now..maybe mamya..pag mag-isa nlng ako, mararamdaman q ung impact ng pagbagsak ng MS ko. ..I thought papasa na iyon, Parang ayoko n ngang kunin sa publication company dahil nanghihina ang tuhod q. It was in Quezon City pa..Im here in Cavite..Kukunin ko pa ba un? Just to feel *arghhh again...
When I hard the words "RETURNED to the author" at first it was ok..yeah I feel ok pa..Kala ko kaya q..I expected it, but I'm still hoping it will pass...Then minute by minute I can feel na unti-unting naglalagas ang sarili ko n parang puzzle, bit by bit something in me is falling down..