Nothing but Me

Stranded! yan ang nangyari s kin kgabi. Dahil ang wlng kakupas kupas n kakarag-karag n bus n ndi ko n mtndaan ang panglan na biyaheng Indang, Pala-pala ay walang awang tumigil s macapagal hi-way. Sus me, s dinami-dmi ng lugar dun pah. at hala heto at wla png limang minuto na naktigil ang bus namin eh my dumating n tow truck. Heto na sila, pera n nman ang katapat nian sbi ng driver. At bgo p makahinuha ay biglang umandar ang karag karag n bus. Buti nlng takot pla to s tow truck naisip ko..At heto andar n nman kmi. Hindi n tlga kya ng tatang n bus kya lumiko kmi papunta ng roxas blvd. s harap ng REPUBLIKA. at dhil traffic nmn, bagamat bwal ay nagsibaba n ang mga pasawy n rin nmn talgang pasahero. Hindi ko nmn masisi dhil tulad ko atat n rin sila at nbwisit s sinakyan nming bus....
Habang naghihintay ako at ang iba p, narealized ko n mahirp din plng sumakay dun...so walk n ko..papunta sana s may baclaran...Nag-imagine ang lolah mo.. nagfiling filing n kunwari nsa korea ako, nagfiling filing na ako si Jessie Han..walking walking n prang lang ibang tao s paligid. Hbang feel n feel ko tlga un malamig n simoy ng hanging ng hatinggabing iyon. Hindi nman ako tkot mag-isa eh..bsta alam kong may pera p ko...so dreaming ever...at feeling beauty hbng naghihintay ng bus, jeep at watever n byaheng Imus, kung may eroplano ba, paparahin ko pa...hay hilig ko tlga magdaydream at magfiling hbng naglalakad...ewan ko, buti nlng hindi ko nggwa un kpag tumtwid ako...mahirap n. At habng nagmumuni-muni ako, hindi ko maiwasng tumingin s mga pasahero ng bus n dumadaan, na aktong nakatingin din s akin...hmmmmmm..bkit kaya? siguro nggndahan sila, at iniisip kung anong gingwa ko s lugar n tulad nun. (in fairness my pailang-ilang ksama naman ako, kya wag n wag nilang isiping pick-up gurl ako ha)..Basta for watever reason iniisip ko nlng n naggndahan nga sila.hahaha ika nga..feel beautiful then u'll look beautiful...*tama b?*..Pero teka paano kung....nyeeek..may iba nnmng pumasok n kuliling s utak ko..paano kung...nkkita nila si Natre...katabi ko! waaaaaahhhhhh...wag nmn..kya nmn pla tumatayo ang balahibo ko not bcoz of the cold breeze but becoz of her presence...waaahhhhh!

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I yub this day! the cold, the wind as it touches and deeply penetrates inside my pores...W-O-W...I'm glad tis rainy days once again. I know only few people likes this kinda season, and that includes meehh. I feel great wenever I see tiny raindrops touches my skin..and though my immune system must hve to work doubly with that, my heart jumps a bit.

I wanna dance through the rain but as you know, those people might think that i'm gone outta crazy..herherher...I really miss my childhood wen I can dance and play as the water from d clouds pouring down on me. The tyms wen I can turn my head up and see the sky as the rain reaches thy innocent face. The tyms wen I run around the house wearing those wet t-shirt and shorts along with my playmates who seems to have their "tabo" and give me a big splash. The tyms wen I laugh aloud wenever we slide down the road. The tyms wen I don't really care wat other myt think of. The tyms wen I was afraid of the lightning and thunder and hating them so much that I cudn't play outside the rain.

Those were the tyms that reminds me alot of tis wet season. I maybe a grown up but in my heart I know..I'm that once little girl. And I can feel her heart thumping so loud more than my grown up self. The child in me unleashing the happiness she once felt..she once used to feel before..just before she become ME.

Birthplace: Philadelphia, PA
Date of Death: 2-14-2005
Cause of Death: Suicide

Najai Turpin, a contestant on the new NBC reality show, "The Contender," committed suicide on Feb. 14. He was 23.

The Philadelphia native was an aspiring middleweight boxer known as Nitro. Described in his show bio as soft spoken and polite, Turpin cared for his younger brother, sister, niece and nephew after his mother died in 2000. At 5 feet 5 inches and 151 lbs., Turpin had a career record of 13 wins, 1 loss and 9 knockouts.

Before landing a spot on the new TV series, Turpin did construction work in the mornings and toiled at a Philadelphia restaurant in the evenings. Early Monday, he shot himself in the head with a small caliber semiautomatic weapon while sitting in a parked car outside the gym where he trained. His girlfriend, Angela Chapple, had just exited the vehicle when he took his own life. Turpin left no suicide note.

In the week before his death, Turpin twice left a boxing camp because he couldn't focus on his training. Although Chapple has declined all interview requirests, she put out a statement that said the couple had "more love than issues." Turpin is survived by his 2-year-old daughter, Anyae.

"The Contender" is a 13-episode series that follows the personal and professional lives of 16 boxers vying for a $1 million prize. Network executives said Turpin's untimely death will not delay the show's debut on March 7 or alter its ending. All of the show's bouts have already been taped, except for its live championship, which will take place in May.

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More than one month after Contender boxer Najai Turpin committed suicide in his hometown of Philadelphia, the fighters he befriended while filming "The Contender" are still in shock that he took his own life.

“I'm still surprised,” Ishe Smith told me in an interview Wednesday. “To this day, I still haven't let it rest in my soul that he killed himself. I'm still confused. I still think somebody killed him... I mean, he was a quiet guy. I know he didn't befriend a lot of people. But he talked a lot to me and I was very close to him so it's very shocking.”

Ishe said Najia’s motivation for living was his daughter. "He loved his daughter and he loved life," Ishe said. "He was doing everything for his daughter. I mean to me, I was upset with him like 'Why did you kill yourself?'"

But Ahmed Kaddour, who was Najai's roommate during the filming of the show, says he suspected that something wasn't right with Najai.

"When he was there, he would sleep in the closet," Kaddour said. "Other times, when I would wake up in the middle of the night to get something to drink, he was sleeping in the kitchen. That guy was funny. On the show everybody got to know him, but I was probably the one who got to know him best. We talked together sometimes in the night. He wasn't normal. I don't know."

Boxer Peter Manfredo says Sunday’s episode of the Contender -- which showed Manfredo getting a second chance to compete on the show after being eliminated on the first episode -- was a bitter-sweet hour to watch. The episode may have marked his own return to the competition, but it also dealt with Najai’s death.

"I lost a friend," Manfredo said.

“I really couldn't believe it when I heard. [One of the boxers on the show called me]. He usually finds out all of the information before us. He called me and he said 'Did you hear what happened?' He said 'Najai killed himself.' I said ‘What?’ I couldn't believe it. My phone almost dropped. I couldn't believe that he would kill himself. He was such a talented fighter. He was a good kid. He wouldn't say anything bad about anybody. I just didn't want to believe it."

Peter revealed that most of the fighters attended Najai’s funeral in Pennsylvania.

"It was sad. You see him in the coffin, open casket. It was just an extremely sad day. It was a loss for not just his family but for the boxing world, because the kid was a great boxer."

Quote: from sengo.com post by 1PSP Guy

Biography:

Born and raised in a tough neighborhood in Philadelphia, Najai came from humble beginnings. From an early age, the soft spoken Najai saw boxing as an alternative to poverty and hardship. By becoming a successful boxing champion, Najai hoped he could provide a better life for himself, his family and especially his pride and joy, daughter Anyae.

At the young age of eighteen, Najai suddenly became the man of the house, when his mother passed away. He then had the additional responsibility of taking care of his younger siblings. In order to provide for his family, he not only juggled several jobs at once but with fierce determination, also managed to squeeze in time to train at his neighborhood gym.

The means streets of his Philly neighborhood had recently dealt Najai another obsticale when he was carjacked at gunpoint and robbed of several hundred dollars in cash. Frustrated and thinking of revenge, he suddenly had a change of heart when the acceptance package from The Contender arrived at his door. Seeing his participation in the show as an opportunity to prove himself, Najai strongly believed it was a sign from God and "He was letting me know he had my back the whole time."

Against what seemed like insurmountable odds, Najai persevered and at the age of 23, had risen to prominence as a promising young fighter with a 13-1-0 record, that included 9 knock outs. Often called the "total package" he was respected by his pears for his dignity, his dedication to his family and his deep passion for the sport of boxing.

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The aspiring 16 (Acts of Courage)
The COnTeNDeR-Season 1


Courtesy of tv.com

Yippiii...payday gallore! the most awaited moment in our lives..whewwww s wakas. S hirap ng buhy ngyon, cnong hndi nangangailangan ng datung!? well even the richest *ika nga* employee in our department (our young bosing ever) ayun nakijoin p s amin pra pumunta s atm to get our kadatungan. As ussual tanghaling tapat nnman...ang init! nwalan ng saysay ang sunblock ko at sunglass pati n rin ung pagpayong ko ninang umga khit ndi maxado ang init just to get my salary...well kc nmn sobra atat na kami nuh. bka humaba pa ang pila at lalo lng kming maglaway to get our precious salary.hehehe. anyways buti nlng alang tao at kmi ang nauna...
Fast Forward>>>>>>Teka bgo kmi bumalik s ofce eh dumaan muna kmi ng ksma ko s namataan nming crowd knina lng...I thought my bagong bukas na resto dto s kahabaan ng emerald ave...so makikiusi lng nman kami eh. But more than that...may promo pla. W-O-W mapapaaga ata ang lunch nmin nito s isip ko. puro kc free taste, at kung may kakapalan ang amuks mo eh, sulit na tlga ang lunch mo, khit smahn mo p ng meryenda eh.hehehe...Nakipagtsiktsikan 2loy kmi s mga pasosyal kunong empleyado ng mga company dto s ortigas. Hmmmmp. if i know, mahihilig din silang lahat...mahihilig s libre at free taste. Queber kung anong attire. Bossing type, nkalong sleeve, corporate attire, pati ung mga naglilinis sa kalsada ng emerald nandun...at sempre kmi..sayang lang dahil 3lng n booth ung sinugod nmin ni J. ung s jelly juice, President-noodle snack at pati n rin ung I-ON n energy drink....
All this tym akla ko kmi lang ni J. ang makapal n nkisiksik dun kc aayaw-ayaw p kuno ung mga ksama nming guys....un pala...un pala....
When they arrived s ofce since nauna nman kming dumating ni J., abah...ang mga loko..may mga dalang VIRGIN softdrinks...hmmmpppp...teka, napaisip 2loy ako kung bkit ndi ako nakakuha nun. Wen I ask them kung buong bottle ung binibigay...sabi sa kin...HINDI DAW..NADEKWAT LANG NILA....LOL...
Nakup, mas malala pa pala ang mga ire s isip ko. In fairness nman, binigyan nila kami at nagtunggaan pa kmi dto s ofce.heheh...then all of a sudden...
May pumsok na isang ndi nmin kdepartment, sbi nia...

"Mas masarap ang virgin kapag nirerep (nire-ref)"

Tawanan kming lahat.

"Ano nirereyp? Msarap ba un kapag nireyp muna?" tanong ng kdept. ko

"Uu naman."

"Ikaw gusto mo ng Virgin?"

"O sige"

"Bakit hindi kpb nkatikim ng Virgin?"

"Hay naku hindi pa nga. Puro ano na ung natikman ko eh."

Tawanan ulit kami.

"Hoy, db 22o naman, na wala ng Virgin sa iniong mga boys."

Tawanan ulit..

Prrrrrrtttttt..teka naiba ata ang tema ng usapan nmin ah.heheheh.
Kaya ayun tuloy naghanap ng yelo yun isang guy ksi hindi daw nmin marerep(reyp) un Virgin kaya yelo nlng....^_^

Hehehe...for those who requested a copy of my picture...well..DYARANNN..eto na...CUTE..HOT..SEXY in spaghetti strap, above the knee length dress. As Ive said am not petite (except now) ika nga "siksik, liglig at umaapaw" :P. So come and grab me while supplies last. But if symptoms persist..DUH insult ur doctors....hehehe..juk!

X'cess:
Oooppss..U never told me of my recent pics..well..thats it for now!

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Cont. lng 2 ng previous post ko. So where are we now? ahh...uu teka..
Well un nga. Until n set ko na ung table..Can u imagine, since la me tble s rum, japanese kinda style kuno..la rin me bed, sieratone foam lang nakalatag.heheh..Un kumuha me ng maliit na carton n nillgyan ng buks ng brod ko.hehe..tinakpan ko ng casper na malaking punda ng unan ko.haha..balak ko sna un mga gmit nmin s bhay kya lng dnko pwede baba kc nga it's late na bka tanungin ako kung bakit gising pako...so ayun, gus2 ko sna un bed sheet ko..itutupi ko nlng, kya lng naisip ko..bka, nmn masunog ng candle..:P lagot akow.heheh..DYARANNN.....nkaset n ung candle lyt table ko...pati nrin ung mga ibang candles kinalat ko s rum ko bali 5 candles lng lahat un..then I turn off the lyts...WOW khit pano cute prin pla, ndi n halata un table cloth ko n puna ng unan..hehehe..Actually that nyt, inaaway ko xa 2 d point n nagpunitan p kmi ng letters at cards..hahah..Topak ko tlga...after nia kong sunduin s gate ng greentown at paghintayin ko xa ng 1 and 1/2 hour, ndi ko xa pinansin.hahah...Hindi 2loy ako nkaangkas sa bike niya....hmp...Anyways, wen all was settled..I called him dun s rum ng brod ko then sempre 2log n xa nun nuh, ginising ko lang...pero smile n xa ngyn kla nia ksi bati na kami eh.hahaha...
But before anything else I blinfolded him..AT first hesistant sia, pro tinkot ko..."Sige pag ayaw mo, hindi tayo bati." then sempre payag n xa...Pinatayo ko muna siya s may pinto then immediately nagbihis nko ng costume ko este ng dress...hahah, kunwari nsa resto kmi nka formal outfit pko, orange floral slevelss na my ruffles, beige knee-length n skirt n my embroidery n blue flowers sa laylayan...with matching off-white sandal...heheh...then i go to him telling him na sige ok n..Tinanggal ko ung blindfold niya...
at Nangiti siya..At u know wats the first thing that he said...well eto lang nman...

him: May topak ka talaga, ano naman 2ng kalokohan mo. smiling
me: Cute ba? *nhihiya n ko
him: Ikaw tlga
me: Ayaw mo b?
him: Gusto, pero sana sinabi mo s kin. Para nakapaghanda ako.
me: Edi hindi n surprise yan.
him: Kya pla naghhnap k ng lighter ha. Akala ko susunugin mo yung mga sulat ko eh.
me: *laugh

Then we drink beer and have the snack together...After a while, since the whole room is blanketed with sweet songs from my cute radio, I told him." Hindi mo ba ako isasayaw?"
Then without a single word..He stand and ask my hand for a dance. Then atlast, we dance.."If I'm not in Love with you" yung title ng song.heheh.. Pero sandali lng, naupo n kmi..Then I ask him kung bakit. Sabi niya mjo nalasing na dw xa..After we finish the beer, We kiss gudnyt. He has to "migrate" (as wat I always tell him) to the other rum. Since my parents myt suspect that he's in my rum.heheh..

After that nyt...it was 3pm the following day. He ask me to go out..Gagala lng dw kmi s SM Bacoor, then we will go to church to attend 6pm mass in Baclaran. SO habang nasa tricycle kmi, I told him...

me: Ang daya mo, may utang ka s akin.
him: Ano?
me: Bakit ndi mo ako sinayaw ng mtagal?
Then I heard a slight giggle.
him: Nahihiya ako eh.
me: Bakit?
him: Kasi hindi ako prepared..Nakaformal kpa at nkaskirt. Sana ayun nlng ang sinuot mo ngayon? Biro niya.
me: Nyek. Bkit nman?
him: Kasi cute.

hahah..atlast sinabi niya rin ang magic word.
Actually I understand, kung bkit nhihiya pa siya..kc nga nmn, ang sweet at romantic ng attire ko at set-up ng rum tapos nkapantulog lang xa...heheh...kya pla hindi niya ako sinayaw ng
matagal.heheheh. Kya I told him nxt tym kelangan nka formal n xa....then he laughs at me...

I dunno wat to feel..ma22wa, mhihiya dhil sa ginawa koh....
In the first nyt of July, I did the unexpected...waahh, nhihiya tlga ako. *blushing.
I gave him a candle lyt dinner! nyek ndi pla dinner. Dhil we had that already, instead I prepared a beer and a snack for him...I know it's kinda palpakins nmn kc it's supposed to be dinner kya lng..ndi ako nkpagluto at isa p..bka mahalta ng parents ko n am up to something.heheh.. It's kinda weird kc nga, s room ko held un..lahat ng tinago kong candles nilabas ko.hehe..2 shell candles adn 3 ader scenteds. dahil nrin s kakulangn ng preparations and budget, ndi me nkabili ng vase. I'm supposed to used our own vase in sala kya lng..nandun p parents ko, bka magtaka sila kung bkit iaakyat ko ung vase.heheh. actually it was friday nyt so he came to our house and spend the weekends with my family, he just stay in my brother's rum pra la prob.heheh.
Well, enough of the "paligoys", un nga i dun hv a vase for my white flowers pra s setting ng romantic table ko..so kinuha ko nlng un maliit n bonsai-like plant s altar (ang sama ko) then itinusok ko dun un flower para tumayo siya..then..DYARANNN...pwede nrin, bsta wag lng gglawin pra ndi matumba.heheh.
After dat ung "kopita" ko ndi nagmatch, mali un nabili ko, ung isa malaki ung isa maliit...waahh..palpaks nnman akow...Pero d bale n. Sayang nmn kung ndi m22loy...
And bcoz, bgla ko lng naisip un, dhil la nga ko budget, muntik nkong maglakad pauwi..kya nga 2 beer in can lang nbili ko s grocery eh...waahhh..then 1 tortillas...buti nlng may 10 pesos pkong nadukot sa kawawa kong bag..hay! wat a relief...heheh..
~~oops 2loy ko nlng nxt tym...mag-uuwian n pla kmi, nawili nko s kwento ko eh......til then..